Waiting For A Star To Shine

Posted on December 31st, 2008 in Anne At College by kimber

Anne lay on the grass, staring up at the stars. Tomorrow… tomorrow, Stevie would marry Eric.  The bouquet was ready for pick up, Nance said.  Everything was ready. 

She should be feeling happy for her boss, she WAS happy for her boss, Anne corrected but she also felt…

Jealous

Would she ever care for a man like Stevie cared for Eric? Would she ever be loved in return?

The North Star twinkled down on her, drawing Anne back in time…

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“Why does everyone love Ginny more than they love me, Daddy?”Anne felt her Dad’s shoulder shift behind her ten year old head.”It isn’t that they love Ginny more, pigeon,” his deep voice rumbled, so sure. Her Dad always knew all the right answers.”Then what is it?” She didn’t understand. She tried so hard to get people to like her but Ginny with her golden hair and easy smile charmed them without even trying.”See that star, pigeon?” He pointed at the North Star.

“Yes.”

“And see that one?” His finger moved an inch to the right.

“Yes.” What did stars have to do with love?

“Which one is better?”

She didn’t know. “The big one.” Was that the right answer?

“Is bigger better?”

“Its brighter.” She so wanted to be right.

“Is brighter better?”

Anne scrunched up her nose in confusion. “I don’t know, Daddy.” He always told her that if she didn’t know, she should say she didn’t know.

“It gets your attention first though, doesn’t it?”

“Yes.”

“Will it always?”

“No.” This she did know. “Mrs. Bennett” her teacher “said stars burn out.”

“And when that happens, people will look at the other star first, won’t they?”

Like they would look at her first.  She was the dim star. And Ginny was the bright star. Anne thought about that for a few minutes. “When will my star shine, Daddy?”

“I don’t know, pigeon.” She got a squeeze from her Dad. “But it will shine, I promise you.”

And it would because her Daddy always kept his promises.

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Years later, Anne was still waiting for her Dad to keep his promise. Waiting for her star to shine. Waiting for someone to see her first.

Wedding Plans

Posted on December 24th, 2008 in Anne At College by kimber

“F**k James, why don’t you have a fax machine?” Two months later, a familiar voice barked in her ear.

“I spent my money on textbooks and booze.” It was easier to come up with snappy comebacks over the phone.

“F**k you. I need you to come to the city this weekend,” Stevie demanded.

“T…t…this weekend?” Anne thought of her economics project coming due.

“That jackaSS wants to get married and I figured, what the f**k, lets get it over with.”

“Married?” Anne beamed. He actually pulled it off. Eric was going to marry Stevie.

“What the hell, James, you lose your f**king brains? That’s what I said. He thinks us being married will help with transition or some sh**. Anyway, I expect you at the City Hall at one o’clock. Oh, and bring a f**king bouquet. That jacka$$ wants me to have one.”

The phone clicked.

A bouquet? What did she know about wedding bouquets? But… yes, that’s right, Nance had been busy studying the bridal mags, dreaming of her big day. She would scout one out happily. Practice.

Last Day

Posted on December 17th, 2008 in Anne At College by kimber

“We’re going to turn him down.” Eric reached over and stole a forkful of Anne’s chocolate cream pie. “We’ll tell him on Monday.” Monday, she’d be back in school. Had they done that on purpose? Anne studied Stevie’s grim face.

“F**k off, James.”

That was self consciousness talking. They had. Anne smiled. “Thank you.”

“F**k…”

“You’re welcome,” Eric broke in, giving Stevie’s hand a squeeze. “It was the least we could do. For all your help this summer and for…” He waved his hand between the two of them.

“You’re okay, James.” Grudging admiration from Stevie. “If you don’t f**k up somehow, you’ll go far.”

“So you’ll give me a reference?” Mr. Michaels said he would but after Monday…

Stevie opened her mouth but Eric interrupted. “I’ll give you a reference. Any firm would be lucky to hire you.”

“You’re f**king wasted working for someone else. Don’t waste the time.”

“Like you did?” Eric raised an eyebrow, his eyes sparkling.

“Jacka$$. I’m talking about f**king James.”

“Right.” A laugh.

Anne felt a twinge of sadness. She’d miss these two. Not that she’d say anything, Stevie would go bezerk over that.

Or maybe she wouldn’t because the next words out of Stevie’s mouth were “And if you want a f**king reference, you better f**king stay in touch. No d**n disappearing act.”

The Counteroffer

Posted on December 10th, 2008 in Anne At College by kimber

They had been in the boardroom for two hours. Anne, seated at her nearby desk, was too nervous to get any work done. Would she have a boss when it was done? Would they both be walked out? Would she have a job for the remaining two weeks of the summer? She needed the money for school.

The yelling had stopped. Was that a good sign? Or was everyone dead?

Anne sharpened her pencil for the thousandth time. There wasn’t much of a pencil left.

Finally the door opened and Mr. Michaels stormed out, his face red, his tie loosened. “It’s all your fault.” He gave Anne a bone cutting glare. “I knew you two were too much alike.”

Great. There goes her reference.

Stevie was the next to surface, her cheeks flushed. “F**k” was all she had to say.

“Exactly.” Even Eric’s perpetual grin was tired. “Lots to think about.”

To think about? “So?” They weren’t quitting?

“Counteroffer, James, always expect the counteroffer.” Eric sat on the corner of her desk.

“F**k” came from Stevie.

“Gotta think about it.” Eric somehow had the ability to translate Stevie’s one word answers. “Only prudent, only polite.”

“F**k.”